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Sentiment and Emotion Breed Cruelty

May 5th ~ One can see that neither emotion nor sentiment has any place at all where love is concerned.  Sentimentality and emotion are merely reactions of like or dislike.  I like you and I get terribly enthusiastic about you–I like this place, oh, it is lovely and all the rest, which implies that I don’t like the other and so on.  Thus sentiment and emotion breed cruelty.  Have you ever looked at it?  Identification with the rag called the national flag is an emotional sentimental factor and for that factor you are willing to kill another–and that is called the love of your country, love of the neighbor . . . ?  One can see that where sentiment and emotion come in, love is not.  It is emotion and sentiment that breed the cruelty of like and dislike.  And one can see also that where there is jealousy, there is no love, obviously.  I am envious of you because you have a better position, better job, better house, you look nicer, more intelligent, more awake and I am jealous of you.  I don’t in fact say I am jealous of you, but I compete with you, which is a form of jealousy, envy.  So envy and jealousy are not love and I wipe them out; I don’t go on talking about how  to wipe them out and in the meantime continue to be envious–I actually wipe them out as the rain washes the dust of many days off a leaf.  I just wash them away.

March 21st, 2020 ! 

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We Must Die to All Our Emotions

May 6th ~ What do we mean by emotion?  Is it a sensation, a reaction, a response of the senses?  Hate, devotion, the feeling of love or sympathy for another–they are all emotions.  Some, like love and sympathy, we call positive, while others, like hate, we call negative and want to get rid of.  Is love the opposite of hate?  And is love an emotion, a sensation, a feeling that is stretched out through memory?

. . . . So, what do we mean by love?  Surely, love is not memory.  That is very difficult for us to understand because for most of us, love is memory.  When you say that you love your wife or your husband, what do you mean by that?  Do you love that which gives you pleasure?  Do you love that with which you have identified yourself and which you recognize as belonging to you?  Please, these are facts; I am not inventing anything, so don’t look horrified.

. . . . It is the image, the symbol of “my wife” or “my husband” that we love, or think we love, not the living individual.  I don’t know my wife or my husband at all; and I can never know that person as long as knowing means recognition.  For recognition is based on memory–memory of pleasure and pain, memory of the things I have lived for, agonized over, the things I possess and to which I am attached.  How can I love when there is fear, sorrow, loneliness, the shadow of despair?  How can an ambitious man love?  And we are all very ambitions, however honourably.

So, really to find to find out what love is, we must die to the past, to all our emotions, the good and the bad–die effortlessly, as we would a poisonous thing, because we understand it.  

May 19th, 2020 ~ Recognizing and knowing seem different than understanding.  

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One Must Have Great Feelings

May 7th ~ In the modern world where there are so many problems, one is apt to lose great feeling.  I mean by that word feeling, not sentiment, not emotionalism, not mere excitement, but that quality of perception, the quality of hearing, listening, the quality of feeling, a bird singing on a tree, the movement of a leaf in the sun.  To feel things greatly, deeply, penetratingly, is very difficult for most of us because we have so many problems.  Whatever we seem to touch turns into a problem.  And, apparently, there is no end to man’s problems, and he seems utterly incapable of resolving them because the more the problems exist, the less the feelings become.

I mean by “feeling” the appreciation of the curve of a branch, the squalor, the dirt on the road, to be sensitive to the sorrow of another, to be in a state of ecstasy when we see a sunset.  These are not sentiments, these are not mere emotions.   Emotion and sentiment or sentimentality turn to cruelty, they can be used by society; and when there is sentiment, sensation, then one becomes a slave to society.  But one must have great feelings.  The feeling for beauty, the feeling for a word, the silence between two words, and the hearing of a sound  clearly–all that generates feeling.  And one must have strong feelings, because it is only the feelings that make the mind highly sensitive.

March 18th, 2020 ~  This is a motivation to lessen our problems–to not see things as problems but as facts of which they are.  The more important the situation or difficult the scenario, do we see the petty issues more of what they are? 

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Observation Without Thought

May 8th ~ There is no feeling without thought; and behind thought is pleasure; so those things go together; pleasure, the word, the thought, the feeling; they are not separated.  Observation without thought, without feeling, without word is energy.  Energy is dissipated by word, association, thought, pleasure, and time; therefore, there is no energy to look.

March 17th, 2020 ~ This is quite fascinating and helpful.  We make the mind and the observation of mind tricky and confusing.   Knowing pleasure is in the mix is important.  Dissipation of energy is also important to know.  Energy leaks out when we are not still, when we fidget. 

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The Totality of Feeling

May 9th ~ What is feeling?  Feeling is like thought.  Feeling is a sensation.  I see a flower and I respond to that flower; I like it or dislike it.  The like or the dislike is dictated by my thought, and the thought is the response of the background of memory.  So, I say, “I like that flower,” or “I do not like that flower”; “I like this feeling” or “I do not like that feeling.” . . . . Now, is love related to feeling?  Feeling is sensation, obviously–sensation of like and dislike, of good and bad, of good taste and all the rest of it.  Is that feeling related to love? . . . . Have you watched your street, have you watched the way you live in your houses, the way you sit, the way you talk?  And have you noticed all your saints whom you worship?  For them passion is sex, and therefore they deny passion, therefore they deny beauty–deny in the sense of putting those aside.  So, with sensation you have put away love because you say, “Sensation will make me a prisoner, I will be a slave to sex-desire; therefore I must cut it out.”  Therefore you have made sex into an immense problem. . . . When you have understood feeling completely, not partially, when you have really understood the totality of feeling, then you will know what love is.  When you can see the beauty of a tree, when you can see the beauty of a smile, when you can see the sun setting behind the walls of your town–see totally–then you will know what love is.

March 16th, 2020 ~

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If You Do Not Name That Feeling

May 10th ~ When you observe a feeling, that feeling comes to an end.  But even though the feeling comes to an end, if there is an observer, a spectator, a censor, a thinker who remains apart from the feeling, then there is still a contradiction.  So it is very important to understand how we look at a feeling.

Take, for instance, a very common feeling: jealousy.  We all know what it is to be jealous.  Now, how do you look at your jealousy?  When you look at that feeling, you are the observer of jealousy as something apart from yourself.  You try to change jealousy, to modify it, or you try to explain why you are justified in being jealous, and so on and so forth.  So there is a being, a censor, an entity apart from jealousy who observes it.  For the moment jealousy may disappear, but it comes back again; and it comes back because you do not really see that jealousy is part of you.

. . . . What I am saying is that the moment you give a name, a label to that feeling, you have brought it into the framework of the old; and the old is the observer, the separate entity who is made up of words, of ideas, of opinions about what is right and what is wrong. . . . But if you don’t name that feeling–which demands tremendous awareness, a great deal of immediate understanding–then you will find that there is no observer, no thinker, no center from which you are judging, and that you are not different from the feeling.  There is no “you” who feels it.

March 15th, 2020 ~ The third sentence in the second paragraph is fascinating: When you look at that feeling, you are the observer of jealousy as something apart from yourself.  It is also very subtle.  To see that you think of a feeling like jealousy as separate from oneself.  We want the feeling gone, but does that mean we see it as separate from us?  Can’t we want it gone even though it feels like it is part of us?  Can we have this sense of self and feel like it is a part of us and yet want it to be gone?  See how things happen so fast.  The great ones say it is not possible.  For example, we think we have a self that stays the same yet gets older.  How is this possible?  The only way this is possible is to have faith in something you can’t really see: an entity that grows and yet stays the same to be able to call it a self that is inherently existing.  The great ones say this is not possible.  We have to search for this entity that grows yet stays the same.  We don’t find it.  We look and also trust the great ones. 

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Emotions Lead Nowhere

May 11th ~ Whether you are guided by your emotions or guided by your intellect, it leads to despair because it leads nowhere.  But you realize that love is not pleasure, love is not desire.

You know what pleasure is, sir?  When you look at something or when you have a feeling, to think about that feeling, to dwell constantly upon that feeling gives you pleasure, and that pleasure you want and you repeat that pleasure over and over again.  When a man is very ambitious or a little ambitious, that gives him pleasure.  When a man is seeking power, position, prestige in the name of the country, in the name of an idea, and all the rest of it, that gives him pleasure.  He has no love at all, and therefore he creates mischief in the world.  He brings about war within and without.

So one has to realize that emotions, sentiment, enthusiasm, the feeling of being good, and all that have nothing whatsoever to do with real affection, compassion.  All sentiment, emotions have to do with thought and therefore lead to pleasure and pain.  Love has no pain, no sorrow, because it is not the outcome of pleasure or desire.

March 14th, 2020 ~ Cause and effect.  What leads to love?  Transformation does not come from desire, since desire is the result of thought, which is time and fear. 

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Memory Negates Love

May 12th ~ Is it possible to love without thinking?  What do you mean by thinking?  Thinking is a response to memories of pain or pleasure.  There is no thinking without the residue which incomplete experience leaves.  Love is different from emotion and feeling.  Love cannot be brought into the field of thought; whereas feeling and emotion can be brought.  Love is a flame without smoke, ever fresh, creative, joyous.  Such love is dangerous to society, to relationship.  So, thought steps in, modifies, guides it, legalizes it, puts it out of danger; then one can live with it.  Do you not know that when you love someone, you love the whole mankind?  Do you not know how dangerous it is to love man?  Then, there is no barrier, no nationality; then, there is no craving for power and position, and things assume their values.  Such a man is a danger to society.

For the being of love, the process of memory must come to an end.  Memory comes into being only when experience is not fully, completely understood.  Memory is only the residue of experience; it is the result of a challenge which is not fully comprehended.  Life is a process of challenge and response.  Challenge is always new but the response is ever old.  This response, which is conditioning, which is the result of the past, must be understood and not disciplined or condemned away.  It means living each day anew, fully and completely.  This complete living is possible only when there is love, when your heart is full. not with words nor with the things made by the mind.  Only where there is love, memory ceases; then every movement is a rebirth.

March 13th, 2020 ~

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Do Not Name a Feeling

May 13th ~ What happens when you do not name?  You look at an emotion, at a sensation, more directly and therefore have quite a different relationship to it, just as you have to a flower when you do not name it.  You are forced to look at it anew.  When you do not name a group of people, you are compelled to look at each individual face and not treat them all as a mass.  Therefore you are much more alert, much more observing, more understanding; you have a deeper sense of pity, love; but if you treat them all as the mass, it is over.

If you do not label, you have to regard every feeling as it arises.  When you label, is the feeling different from the label?  Or does the label awaken the feeling? . . . .

If I do not name a feeling, that is to say if thought is not functioning merely because of words or if I do not think in terms of words, images, or symbols, which most of us do–then what happens?  Surely the mind then is not merely the observer.  When the mind is not thinking in terms of words, symbols, images, there is no thinker separate from the thought, which is the word.  Then the mind is quiet, is it not?–not made quiet, it is quiet.  When the mind is really quiet, then the feelings that arise can be dealt with immediately.  It is only when we give names to feelings and thereby strengthen them that the feelings have continuity; they are stored up in the center, from which we give further labels, either to strengthen or to communicate them. 

March 12th, 2020 ~  I know that sometimes I come across feelings where it is difficult to determine what the feeling is.  Until recently, I felt a sense of uncertainty but I didn’t know that was what it was until I read Steve Hagen’s work   Krishnamurti also talks about uncertainty.  There are times when it is very difficult to find the right word.  I want to hold onto the feeling until I can name it and get rid of it through a means.  The effort is there.  Why would I need a name and cause of the feeling if each time, I am admonished to look at situations anew?  This also reminds me of the emptiness class I completed at the local Tibetan Center–Oceans of Compassion.  We not only talked about labels but also the base.  The base is a phenomenon with certain characteristics.  This base then led to a label.  The label is different depending the language used.  Both the base and the label are empty i.e. empty of inherent existence.  Thus, it arises dependent upon causes and conditions. 

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Remain with a Feeling and See What Happens

May 14th ~ You never remain with any feeling, pure and simple, but always surround it with the paraphernalia of words.  The word distorts it; thought, whirling round it, throws it into shadow, overpowers it with mountainous fears and longings.  You never remain with a feeling and with nothing else: with hate, or with that strange feeling of beauty.  When the feeling of hate arises, you say how bad it is; there is the compulsion, the struggle to overcome it, the turmoil of thought about it. . . .

Try remaining with the feeling of hate, with the feeling of envy, jealousy, with the venom of ambition; for after all, that’s what you have in daily life, though you may want to live with love, or with the word love.  Since you have the feeling of hate, of wanting to hurt somebody with a gesture or a burning word, see if you can stay with that feeling.  Can you?  Have you ever tried?  Try to remain with a feeling, and see what happens.  You will find it comes rushing in with its remembrances, its associations, its do’s and don’ts, its everlasting chatter.  Pick up a piece of shell.  Can you look at it, wonder at its delicate beauty, without saying how pretty it is, or what animal made it?  Can you look without the movement of the mind?  Can you live with the feeling behind the word, without the feeling that the word builds up?  If you can, then you will discover an extraordinary thing, a movement beyond the measure of time, a spring that knows no summer.

March 11th, 2020 ~ It is very reassuring to read these words given the world situation right now with the Covid-19 Corona Virus.  Stay with the feeling, K says.  Stay with fear.  It’s daunting but reassuring.